trkracer -- thanks for the post. I am heading off to OCS in 3 weeks and have thought about many of the things that you have mentioned. But, I am engaged and thankfully to a woman who is 100% supportive. Yes we are concerned about the time away and the demands of the profession (which I can't comment on), but we both know and accept that my being away serves a greater purpose than any 'job' can boast. I am a "Christian man" also, so I can come to grips also with the moral issues that come with the territory. You'll understand what I am saying when I say that if you really think that this is the direction you are being called, than know that the rest will take care of itself because you showed up despite whatever fear you may have.