Please take a moment and update your account profile. If you have an updated account profile with basic information on why you are on Air Warriors it will help other people respond to your posts. How do you update your profile you ask?
To the OP, I get this is "the biggest thing in the world right now", but this will pass. I saw this more than a few times at selection days as an IP. You've spent months/years obsessing over this day and it didn't go the way you wanted, but you're still part of a highly skilled group inside one of the world's best fighting forces. That's not nothing.
In a few months, the day you put those wings on will be Top 5 in your life. If you've still got the urge to fly Hercs later on, there's Guard and Reserve units.