well that's a load off my mind....somewhat
think of it this way dude, there will undoubtably be a number of guys who go to 184 who were given the chance that you would kill for right now, and they are gonna wash out...and most of them probably won't come back to try again. You on the other hand will have clawed and scratched and fought your way in through whatever means necessary, and you won't have to prove to yourself that you want to be there.
I remember going out for spring try-outs for varsity football at the end of my freshman year, and after the first week, the coach singled out about 15 of us in front of the whole team and said he doubted we would make the team, maybe next year, but we were welcome to stay and practice to the selection day. I felt like the biggest reject, but i just loved the game. Four quit that day, and by the end of the next week only three of us remained. We stuck it out to the end of the 6 week try-outs and the last day i turned my equipment in, and the team manager looked at me funny and asked why i was quitting. I said becuase I had just stuck around to practice but the coach had cut me. He said no, my name was on the roster, i was in. I didn't believe it, so i went to the coach and he said "No i never cut you, i just said i doubted that you would make the team, i simply allowed you to cut yourselves, obviously you want to play for this team, i'm glad to have you."
sounds like you don't plan on cutting yourself by not trying again... some guy posted a while ago that he wasn't going to re-apply becuase he didn't get selected due to some foul-up with his PFT score. What a loser reason to walk away from a dream.
keep trying until they flat out let you in just to stop having to read your app.
that's my plan anyway
